Mom,
I miss you. I miss you more than I ever thought I could. I think of you every day. I talk of you every day. My brothers and our kids do too. We all miss you mama Lulu.
It was 20 years ago this very day, this very time in fact; that I was lying at your left hand side waiting for what I knew was the end. The veil was thin that evening, and you were hovering between here and there.
My heart was breaking. I was bargaining with God, I was talking to you with my thoughts, telling you all the "I love you's" I could get out, enough to make up for these years of not having you here to hear them.
And then you were gone. You slipped through our fingers and flew as an angel. I remember my brother Vicent was on your right hand side and I was on your left hand side. We sat in stunned silence and prayed with all our hearts that you would forever know how much you were loved. And you still are loved. Not only by us, but by so many, your twin sister Evelyn and the Mwaka family in general.
I miss you. I love you. I can't believe it's been 20 years. And yet it seems like forever has passed since I've seen you. I hope you can see us, and I hope we make you proud. I hope you can feel how much we love you, and that you can somehow show us you're still here.
This day will always be hard, but now we are all together to remember that day. We laugh a lot, we cry plenty, and we remember with reverent fondness all those miracles and mercies that were ours for those short days we spent with you. You were a woman and a half mama…...!!!
I miss you. I miss you more than I ever thought I could. I think of you every day. I talk of you every day. My brothers and our kids do too. We all miss you mama Lulu.
It was 20 years ago this very day, this very time in fact; that I was lying at your left hand side waiting for what I knew was the end. The veil was thin that evening, and you were hovering between here and there.
My heart was breaking. I was bargaining with God, I was talking to you with my thoughts, telling you all the "I love you's" I could get out, enough to make up for these years of not having you here to hear them.
And then you were gone. You slipped through our fingers and flew as an angel. I remember my brother Vicent was on your right hand side and I was on your left hand side. We sat in stunned silence and prayed with all our hearts that you would forever know how much you were loved. And you still are loved. Not only by us, but by so many, your twin sister Evelyn and the Mwaka family in general.
I miss you. I love you. I can't believe it's been 20 years. And yet it seems like forever has passed since I've seen you. I hope you can see us, and I hope we make you proud. I hope you can feel how much we love you, and that you can somehow show us you're still here.
This day will always be hard, but now we are all together to remember that day. We laugh a lot, we cry plenty, and we remember with reverent fondness all those miracles and mercies that were ours for those short days we spent with you. You were a woman and a half mama…...!!!
And we remember you. We will never forget you, and all the wonderful things that make you, you. We miss you. We love you.
Love,
All of us.
No matter how old we are, losing a mother
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know, but her goodness, her caring and her
wisdom live on..... like a legacy of love that
will always be with you.
Its so touching aunty..May mamas soul Rest in Peace forever.polee sana..i just wish your mama angekuwepo na kuona your handsome boy and the beautiful girls u gave her..We love you mama and Rest in Peace.our prayers are always with you Mama.
ReplyDeleteThank you Eleanor Simmons.....!!! Love your papa n mama very much, kwani wao ndio Miungu yetu ya dunia.
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